In a recent interview, Garrard Conley,
author of Boy Erased: A Memoir of Identity, Faith and Family,
described the history of queer cinema as “torture porn.”
At 19, and while attending college,
Conley was outed to his conservative parents. The only child of a
car salesman who was about to be ordained a Baptist minister, Conley
was terrified of his father's response to learning about his
sexuality. His parents sent him to an “ex-gay” camp which
promised to alter Conley's sexual orientation.
Conley's 2016 book has been turned into
a major Hollywood film starring Nicole Kidman, Russell Crow and Lucas
Hedges.
Speaking with Mic.com, Conley, who now
lives in New York with his husband, responded to critics who say “we
don't need any more sad queer movies.”
“Which I totally get, and I
completely sympathize with that,” Conley
said. “Because I feel like the history of queer cinema has been
a lot of torture porn, almost. But it’s so strange whenever it’s
a real story that’s still going on. I feel pulled in two different
directions, where I’m like, 'We don’t need more sad queer stories
but we do need them, at the same time.'”
“I won’t get into any details, but
just two days ago, and then yesterday again, I started receiving
emails from people who were in other countries who’d seen the
trailer. They were like, 'I’ve been through conversion therapy, I
feel like killing myself right now. I’m ready to do it.' It was so
overwhelming, I actually spoke with the Trevor Project and a few
other places to get advice. But what I walked away from that thinking
was that, this one person emailed me that he was about to commit
suicide before he saw the trailer – and he stopped. The need for
these types of stories feels clear to me. But I know it’s not clear
to everyone who’s not from the area that I’m from [small town
Arkansas], or from some of these places that people are emailing
from.”
“That’s been a really strange
thing. One of the happiest moments in your career happening at the
same time that you’re getting these emails,” he added.
(Related: First
Look: Lucas Hedges, Nicole Kidman, Russell Crowe in “ex-gay”
drama Boy
Erased.)
Boy Erased opens November 2.