John Smid, the former leader of the “ex-gay” ministry Love in Action, now says being gay isn't a choice.

Smid stepped down as executive director of Love in Action in 2008.

In a revealing blog post, Smid concludes that despite his marriage to a woman he's still gay and he has yet to meet a “man who experienced a change from homosexual to heterosexual.”

“I used to define homosexuality or heterosexuality in terms describing one's behavior,” Smid wrote. “I thought it made sense and through the years often wrote articles and talked from that perspective. Today, I understand why the gay community had such an issue with my writings. My perspective denied so many facets of the homosexual experience. I minimized a person's life to just their sexuality but homosexuality is much more than sex.”

“I would consider myself homosexual and yet in a marriage with a woman. My sexual desires, attractions and lifelong struggle with common factors relating to homosexuality are pretty much all in the classification of homosexual. I tried my hardest to create heterosexuality in my life but this also created a lot of shame, a sense of failure and discouragement. Nothing I did seemed to change me into a heterosexual even though I was in a marriage that included heterosexual behavior.”

Zack Ford writing at notes: “He joins a chorus of other former 'ex-gay' leaders who have apologized for tying to shame gays and lesbians into rejecting their sexual orientation.”