Actress Portia DeGeneres, the wife of
talk show host Ellen DeGeneres, says her eating disorder was about
trying to starve away her sexuality.
The 37-year-old Australian-born actress
is promoting her memoir Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and
Gain, in which she talks about her struggles with anorexia and
coming to terms with being gay.
In a profile broadcast on ABC's
Nightline on Thursday, DeGeneres talks about how she fused
together her two greatest fears.
“I think I was trying to starve away
my sexuality,” she said. “I was straight up and down. I didn't
have a period. There was nothing about me that looked sexual. I
looked like a young girl. I looked like a little kid. And when I
was a little kid, I didn't have to think about my sexuality.” (The
video is embedded in the right panel of this page.)
DeGeneres gives her talk show wife
credit for saving her from herself: “She taught me how to live
your life without worrying about what other people think of you.”
In a cover story for celebrity glossy
People, DeGeneres said that her wife “saw the person
“My two biggest fears, being fat and
being gay, when realized, led to my greatest joy.”