Out British television personality Stephen Fry revealed this week that he attempted suicide after interviewing an anti-gay politician from Uganda.

Fry interviewed Simon Lokodo, Uganda's minister for Ethics and Integrity, in 2013 as part of the BBC documentary series Stephen Fry: Out There. Lokodo is a vocal opponent of gay rights and a proponent of the country's efforts to make homosexuality a capital offense. Fry described him as a “foaming frothing homophobe of the worst kind.”

In The Not So Secret Life of a Manic Depressive: 10 Years On, a BBC follow up to its 2006 The Not So Secret Life of a Manic Depressive, Fry explains how he was affected by the meeting.

“I knew I had a bottle of vodka in my room and a whole sponge bag full of Ambien. I paced around trying to analyze what it was that disappeared from me and it seemed that the whole essence of me had disappeared,” Fry said. “Everything that was me wasn’t there. Some feeling came over me that this was the end. I just carefully lined up I don’t know how many of those damn pills and drank all the vodka with them.”

The Not So Secret Life of a Manic Depressive: 10 Years On premieres Monday on BBC One.