Alec Baldwin is defending himself against accusations he hurled an anti-gay slur during an altercation with a photographer. claims Baldwin called the photographer a “cocksucking faggot” during the altercation which took place last week outside his New York City apartment.

Baldwin denied the claim, saying he said “cocksucking fathead.”

“I never used the word faggot in the tape recording being offered as evidence against me,” Baldwin wrote in a Huffington Post op-ed. “What word is said right after the other choice word I use is unclear. But I can assure you, with complete confidence, that a direct homophobic slur (or indirect one for that matter) is not spoken. In the wake of referring to a tabloid 'journalist' as a toxic queen, I would never allow myself to make that mistake again, nor would I expose my wife and family to the attendant ridicule.”

The incident led to the two-week suspension of Baldwin's MSNBC show, Up Late with Alec Baldwin, which is expected to return on Friday, November 29.

Baldwin said the show might not return.

Whether the show comes back at all is at issue right now,” he wrote. “But if the show dies, its fate ends up being no different than the vast majority of start-up TV programming, and so be it.”

(Related: Anderson Cooper, Keith Olbermann weigh in on Alec Baldwin suspension.)